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Heroes with difficult marriages

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I just finished reading Faithful Witness: The life and mission of William Carey. Like many other Christian biographies I have read, it inspired me (I will reflect on lessons in a future post). What disturbed me though is the breakdown of his first marriage (he was married three times) and his relationships with his other two wives.

Carey

Carey is sometimes referred to as the founder of modern missions. His faithfulness to India and its people for 41 years inspires me to be faithful to the things that God calls me, despite any hardships. He proclaimed the gospel with no shame and labored to translate the word of God so that people would know God in their mother tongue. I am grateful to God for Carey and his vision.

However, I was disappointed to read about his difficult marriage with his first wife, Dolly. Though the biography is a little sketchy on what exactly happened (most biographies paint Dolly in a negative light), it seems that Carey paid more attention to his vision and ministry than to his marriage.

I don’t doubt that Dolly had her fair share of character and sin issues, but it seems that Carey failed (but perhaps never really realized) in loving his wife. She had more hesitations to give her life to India, yet Carey was not sensitive to her concerns. (Carey first left for India when she was 8 months pregnant). When her son died in India, Dolly never recovered and she had a mental breakdown to the point that many of his friends suggested to him that he check her into an asylum (Carey refused).

Within six weeks of her death, Carey was engaged to Charlotte von Rumohr. It seems that Carey loved Charlotte the most of the three wives. She died before him, and though he remarried, he asked that he be buried beside her when he died. It makes me wonder how his third wife, Grace Hughes, would have felt.

As I am compiling a list of lessons from William Carey, it is hard to know how to glean marital lessons. Another hero of the faith, John Wesley, also had marital problems that can be traced to Wesley’s emphasis on his ministry rather than his marriage.

There are many Christian leaders today who forsake their marriage for the sake of the ministry. Like many other things, even ministry can be addicting and can be the “whore” that comes between a husband and a wife. I have been in full-time ministry for nine years and married for nearly six years. Over the past six years, I have had to learn and re-learn how to focus on my marriage and my family. The tension of family and ministry are real and it seems that every season brings new challenges that require me to reconsider my priorities.

When I read Carey and Wesley, I am inspired to model my life after them, but I am also cautious to find a better model that would honor my devotion to my wife and my family. But is it really possible? If I were to pursue faith like Carey and Wesley, will my marriage suffer? And is it fair to consider these men as heroes of the faith when they neglected such important responsibilities as husbands?

These are some of the questions that are lingering in my head. We all want to believe that our heroes are perfect and without blemish. But I am learning the difficult truth that some of my heroes may be far more broken than I would like them to be.

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Only five times a day?

Being in a Muslim context, we hear the call to prayer five times a day. As the declaration reverberates through the loud speakers throughout the city, Layla innocently asks, “What is that?” The call to prayer urges all Muslims to stop what they are doing and begin preparations to pray.

The first one is at dawn, which after the first day, is something we learn to sleep through. Praying toward Mecca five times a day is one of the five pillars of Islam, called the Salah. Muslims are commanded to enter into a cleaning ritual and pray certain prescribed prayers.

I often hear people who express admiration for the devout Muslims who “religiously” follow the various tenets of Islam, and particularly their dedication toward prayer. Personally, I find it a bit lacking. Islam commands praying only five times a day? Continue reading ‘Only five times a day?’

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“I think you’re Turkish”

I probably hear that statement more than anything else here. Whenever I meet a Turkish person, they wonder why I cannot speak the language. When my White American host explains (in Turkish) that I am American, they are confused. How is it that the Turkish looking guy can’t speak Turkish, but the American looking guy is fluent?

Over the course of the conversation, we explain that my grandfather was born in a city in the eastern part of modern Turkey, and the person slaps his (usually a he) hands together and declares, “I knew you were Turkish!”

Well… not really. But they soon lecture me that it is shameful that I have forgotten my mother tongue.

People often ask me how I feel about visiting Turkey. What is it like for an Armenian person to talk, joke, interact and spend time with Turks? Our peoples are historical enemies, so how is it that I can visit the land of the Turks? And since so many people think I look Turkish, am I offended?

The short answer to that last question is, “not at all!” While we may be ethnically and religiously different, culturally we are more similar than I realized. I feel joy playing tavle (backgammon) or sipping black tea with the people I meet.

Yes, there were terrible and dark moments in our history that have created a rift that continue until today. As a follower of Jesus, I am learning how to walk in forgiveness and value the shalom (or peace) in friendships and relationships. I know that many Armenians (and Turks) would want nothing to do with the other, but as I am in relationship with the Turks, I see the joy of being in relationship with Turks rather than the need to stay away.

In the Letter to the Romans, Paul speaks of returning evil with good. The best response to evil is not vengeance (for that belongs to the Lord), but forgiveness and good. The power of good, forgiveness and peace will do much more for reconciliation and true justice than revenge and vengeance.

The Bible gives a radical teaching on loving our enemies. This is not just a proverb uttered by Jesus, but it is the story of God and God’s people, who would love those who offend, insult, and persecute. Honestly, I will never learn the lesson of loving my enemies within the American (or even Western) Church context. The teaching is too theoretical. Very few people (especially those of the majority culture and those of majority culture type churches) know what it means to harbor deep hatred and bitterness toward another.

The Lord has brought me to Turkey to teach me the deeper essence of loving those whom my people around me tell me are unlovable. I recently heard the account of St. Patrick who intentionally chose to love his enemies. The Lord sent him to his former captors to love them and influence them toward good when they meant to influence him toward evil. The Lord gave Joseph eyes to love his brothers and return evil for good. And the Lord has brought me to Turkey to soften my heart and love those who some say should never be loved.

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A shave and a massage

I got shaved today. Actually, I got shaved twice. My friends and I visited a local barbershop in a coastal city off the Aegean Sea in Turkey, where I got pampered. (Before I am accused of being metrosexual, it is common to be shaved in Turkey)

The young barber lathered my face and with a new blade shaved off the stubble beard. When he was done with the shave, he re-lathered my face and did that process again. After the shave, he washed my hair and massaged my head, and when I thought he was over, he massaged my back, arms and fingers.

And with the “complimentary” glass of tea after the shave/massage, I was relaxed.

We have been in Turkey for three days now, and I think my rhythm is almost normalized. The trip over here went well with Layla. She was a trooper during that process.

My traveling companion and friend has reflected some on our trip so far. I will reflect some as well over the next several weeks. Being here is great for my soul, especially that my whole family is here. I love the life perspective I am getting. And of course culturally, there is so much here that speaks to my soul. Imagine that—Turks and Armenians share common cultural values.

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Where sin dwells…

I will be the first person to acknowledge how fantastic my daughter is. I love her. I care for her, and in my opinion, she’s the cutest and the smartest 21 month old I have ever known. And over the course of the 21 months (30 months if you include the pregnancy), there is so much I have learned about life, about myself and about God because of her.

In the past week, I have begun to learn about sin. There are many parents out there who think their kids are the most innocent beings—and yes, children do have a sense of innocence about them (especially the younger they are)—but my little girl is teaching me about the human heart condition (more than I’d like). Continue reading ‘Where sin dwells…’

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Seven lessons I have learned in ministry this year

  1. Prayer works. This year, I saw first-hand the power of [tag]prayer[/tag]. God answered specific prayers that I recorded in my prayer journal, which include our desire for 100 names of people who are interested in our ministry at the beginning of the year, my staff partner’s funding, and the growth of our community to 25 students (We have 25 students who regularly attend our structures).
  2. People want to be trusted with more. Students want to direct various aspects of our direction and ministry. They want more than what we may offer. The reason we are blessed by Jesus’ statement that when we are faithful with a little, we’ll be faithful with much is because it’s true. We want more from Jesus. We want more responsibility.
  3. Partnership is necessary. Perhaps some churches or ministries can be self-sufficient with no need of assistance from others. But for my ministry and context, partnership is necessary. Financial partnership or encouragements from others, or intercession and general prayers, or even volunteers bless our community and ministry. We might be able to do it alone, but it is much better when we invite others into a partnership to reach the campus. Continue reading ‘Seven lessons I have learned in ministry this year’

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Reflections on War: Support our troops (Part VI)

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The first war I remember paying attention to was [tag]Gulf War[/tag] I back in 1990/1991. What I remember about that war was the American response to the activities in the Middle East. You had two choices—either you [tag]support our troops[/tag] (and the president) or you support [tag]peace[/tag] and withdrawing all troops from the region.

Those categories are even starker today. Supporting our military means supporting the war. Supporting peace is an insult to the brave men and women who are fighting for our freedom. Can one support our military by bringing the troops home? Can one support peace and support the troops simultaneously? Are we surrendering our patriotism if we are critical of our administration and its foreign policy?

Andrew Sullivan of the Daily Dish picked up this quote:

[tag]Iraq[/tag] policy has become the poster child for the pathology that afflicts American politics. Specifically, Iraq policy is the exclusive domain of extremists. On the right, attempts to recognize any specific failures in Iraq policy are condemned as “undermining the troops” while all efforts to change strategy or put pressure our Iraqi allies are disdained as “cut and run” tactics. The right’s approach is pinup patriotism — all flash, no substance. The left is no better, smearing everyone that disagrees with them on any detail (no matter how small) as “Bush sycophants” or “neocons”, all the while responding to any new information about incremental U.S. successes or diplomatic initiatives with behavior akin to a child sticking his fingers in his ears and screaming “la la la la la” in an effort to avoid hearing the intolerable. Where are the moderates?

Support our troops by praying for them. Support our troops by praying for peace. Support our troops by critiquing our foreign policy and engaging the democratic process. Support our troops by encouraging diplomacy. Support our troops by bringing them home when our military actions have reached the point of diminishing returns.

Silly categories and further propaganda by those on the right and the left undermine our foreign policy and our troops. Both sides are guilty of politicizing the war and the military and for not supporting our troops.

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View from Starbucks

I’m not too surprised how quickly I found the [tag]Starbucks[/tag] down the street. Yes, I do feel some level of contradiction and internal tension spending time and purchasing beverages at a Starbucks in [tag]Mexico City[/tag]. As I’m sipping my “alto cafe” and putting together a training schedule, I forgot that I was in Mexico City. The Starbucks soundtrack of the blenders making Frappuccinos and the ‘hip’ American pop songs in the background, reminded me of the Starbucks on Devonshire and Reseda. Of course, the language spoken around me was Spanish.

I am a product of my culture. And there might be something telling that I feel so comfortable at Starbucks. Perhaps, this is the power of globalism. Starbucks is issuing its unique cultural fingerprint on people. The 30-something male who enjoys Starbucks in Mexico City, may be shaped in similar ways to the 30-something male who enjoys Starbucks in the US. And as Starbucks markets its particular brand of culture, it doesn’t really matter what country or city I am in to be a consumer. [tag]Globalism[/tag] is not something that affects people “over there”, but I am affected by globalism as well.

I finished my cup of coffee and headed back out into the cross-cultural world of Mexico City, and wondered how soon I would return.

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We fed 50 people for $5

This past weekend, I was a part of a team of ministry leaders who hosted a training day for college students who are embarking on a short-term mission project this upcoming summer. On Saturday morning, we used breakfast as a cross-cultural exercise, where 50 students were fed grits. We intensified the situation by providing a wonderful breakfast of bacon, eggs, fresh fruit, and muffin to four men. These men got to sit on chairs in the middle of the courtyard, at a table, surrounded by 50 hungry students trying to chow down the butter-less, sugar-less, salt-less grits.

The simulation worked well to teach students about the value of food and to share statistics about [tag]hunger[/tag] in the world. One of the things that came to the forefront was the cost of the meal. We fed 50 students for $5—that’s how much the [tag]grits[/tag] cost us. The students who had the more extravagant meal, it cost us $10 to do breakfast for the four of them.

The students who ate the grits did not starve and we all recognized the opportunities to think about how far our money can go. Some initial observations that I have been reflecting on include: (you may have other ones)

  • We can eat on a lot less than we think, if we change some of our standards. Granted, we can’t live on grits all the time, but we can think creatively about what we expect to have at our meals.
  • Half of the world lives on less than $2/day. Opting to fast or abstain from food, or to just limit our intake, allows us an opportunity to identify with the poorest of the poor.
  • The wealthier societies can be wasteful societies. The four men in the middle with the food had food left on their plates. Although not all the students finished the grits, wasting grits is not as costly as leaving the bacon and eggs on the plates. On a more political level, it can be easy (and not totally inappropriate) to point out the way that governments in third-world countries can waste and mismanage resources. However, it is also appropriate to be self-reflective on how our own society and government is wasteful.
  • Sharing our food with others. All four men felt sympathy for the other students. They wanted to share their food. What are the ways we can share our food with other societies? Solutions are needed on both macro and micro levels. On a macro level, our government can encourage the export of food and crops to other societies. There are farm subsidies that need to be rethought on a governmental and economic level. On a micro level, we can be more concerned for those who are poor among us, investing our time, money, and energy in organizations that feed the hungry, and practice more care in thinking about waste.

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Reflections on War: Winning the peace (Part V)

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Today marks the four year anniversary of our [tag]war[/tag] in [tag]Iraq[/tag]. Four years ago, American and coalition forces launched an air strike and ground offenses to de-arm Saddam’s Iraq. Under the (false) premises that Saddam was storing [tag]weapons of mass destructions[/tag], we launched the war after “diplomacy” had failed, and Saddam and his family refused to leave Iraq.

After four years, there are nearly 4 million Iraqis displaced. The coalition is a skeleton of what it was, with Great Britain being the lone ally remaining in the coalition that has contributed a significant number of troops. There are anywhere between 60,000 and 600,000 Iraqi civilians who have been killed in the process. The government of Iraq is weak with no significant army that can fight the insurgents. Americans are split over the war, with a growing number of people who want us to just get out. Also, American influence in the world has suffered significantly, with many countries in the world having a negative view of the US. Continue reading ‘Reflections on War: Winning the peace (Part V)’

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